Long day in Baltimore

Phil and I went up to Hopkins again today. Our first appointment was with Dr. T, the neurosurgeon. He had obviously done a lot of these surgeries as he had his whole conversation perfected. He briefly went through the treatment options and then discussed the retrosigmoid surgical procedure and its risks; Dr. T was able to give percentages specific to my case for my risk of hearing loss, facial paralysis, and headaches. Overall, Dr. T felt that I should make a pretty full recovery, and we felt good about Dr. T's knowledge and experience.

Afterward, I went to the audiology department to have an audiogram performed. I would get the results at my appointment later that day with Dr. C. Then I took part in a study that Dr. C was heading and went out to lunch with Phil and a friend from college. I was also able to speak with Dr. T's secretary to schedule the surgery for Feb. 9.

At the meeting with Dr. C, we went over some questions I had and the audiogram. It showed that I have a 30-40% loss of hearing in my left ear with 80% word recognition. This means that I can both hear reasonably well and understand speech very well. We all agreed that it would be in my best interest to try to save some of this hearing. Even if I end up with only a little hearing left, it will help with directionality and knowing where sound comes from. I signed the surgical consent forms, and then the appointment was done.

We went home feeling very good about things and looking forward to getting the surgery over with.

(In the interest of full disclosure, this post was actually written on 2/1/09.)

Is the glass half full or half empty?

I got the radiologist's report for the MRI from last week.

"Again noted is an enhancing mass lesion in the left cerebellopontine angle. The majority of this lesion is in the cerebellopontine angle, but with a component protruding into the internal auditory canal. The extracanalicular portion of the mass has increased in all three dimensions when compared with the previous study measuring 1.4 AP x 1.3 RL x 1.6 cm SI (previously 1.3 AP x 0.9 RL x 1.3 cm SI)."

In layman's terms: I still have a tumor. It's grown since the last scan taken four months earlier.

As nice as it would have been for it to not have grown, I was also glad to see it grow because it confirmed that I should go ahead and have surgery now instead of waiting longer.

(In the interest of full disclosure, this post was actually written on 1/30/09.)

Brain MRI, Take 2

I had my second brain MRI today. It was pretty much the same as the first one except I had a different tech. Also, during the scan, I was thinking about whether or not my tumor grew instead of wondering why I was wasting my time having it done.

(In the interest of full disclosure, this post was actually written on 1/30/09.)

Baltimore, here I come

Phil and I went up to Johns Hopkins for the first time today. Dr. C, a neuro-otolaryngologist I found through a search on the discussion forum, was willing to see me on his off-day, only a few days after I initially called to make an appointment.

Our first impression was that even though the hospital isn't in the greatest part of town, the facility itself seems really good. The security at the entrances is reassuring, and the staff is very friendly and helpful. After we headed up to the appropriate floor, we found that the patient intake system is organized with a numbered ticket dispenser, which allows for patient confidentiality as well as creates confidence among the patients that they aren't being forgotten.

The appointment with Dr. C went well. We met first with a younger resident-type guy who took my history and cleaned a glob of wax out of my left ear. Then Dr. C came in and went over the treatment options (watch & wait, surgery, and radiation), focusing on the retrosigmoid surgical procedure. He said that, at Hopkins, they're excellent at retrosigmoid, good at translab, and they don't do middle fossa, and he talked to us about what to expect post-surgery in terms of headaches, loss of balance, and general recovery.

Dr. C also did a thorough examination of my current state of balance by asking me to do some marching in place with my arms extended and my eyes closed, and he checked my vestibular function by turning my head quickly and seeing if my eyes were able to stay focused on his nose. I was able to pass these tests, meaning that my balance nerve was still working and that I may have a harder time after surgery since my other vestibular nerve hasn't done a lot of compensating already.

At the end of the appointment, Dr. C said that I should make an appointment with Dr. T, the neurosurgeon, and schedule a new audiogram. He also gave me the surgical consent forms to look over and bring back next time I saw him if I wanted to have surgery there.

Overall, our impressions of Johns Hopkins and Dr. C were extremely positive, and we left there smiling and feeling very confident that these doctors would take good care of me.

(In the interest of full disclosure, this post was actually written on 1/30/09.)

Need more advice

I had been thinking about Georgetown vs. House for a week when I decided to ask the folks on the forum for advice. They agreed with my inclination to get another opinion at Johns Hopkins and shared with me their stories of how they decided on treatment. It was very helpful to hear from everybody and gave me confidence to keep researching.

(In the interest of full disclosure, this post was actually written on 1/30/09.)

Hello again

I met with Dr. J at Georgetown again. I explained to him what the House docs told me and said that I was thinking about doing translab instead of retrosigmoid. He seemed disappointed but said that if that was what I wanted, he could do it. Then I asked him a couple of questions about things I read related to what you can and cannot do after surgery. At the end of the appointment, he gave me the name of his surgical coordinator and told me to schedule as soon as possible since he was booking up pretty far in advance.

(In the interest of full disclosure, this post was actually written on 1/30/09.)

I'm in the driver's seat

Dr. S, the neurosurgeon from the House Clinic, called me at work today. Here are his thoughts:

• Since I am 26, it must be treated; no watch and wait. He would be reluctant to do radiation on a young person, but it could be done. His recommendation would be surgery.
• He felt that the shape of the tumor looks unfavorable for saving the hearing.
• In terms of his recommended approach, he felt that the tumor was slightly too large to attempt middle fossa, as it would increase the risk to the facial nerve. He wouldn't do retrosigmoid either because it would be difficult to get it all out of the IAC. He thought that translab would be the best way to get it all, but that I might want to wait until we established that it was actually growing.
• He thought that I should get an MRI every three months until we see growth compared to the first MRI.
• His suggestions for reasonable "next steps" were: 1) wait for growth, then do translab, 2) do translab now, and 3) do retrosigmoid now.

I liked how Dr. S didn't just repeat verbatim what Dr. F had told me earlier and that he was able to offer additional things to think about. I liked that he offered options; I felt like I was more in control of what was happening to me instead of feeling like I was being steered into doing just what the doctors thought.

I was considering going out to the House Clinic in Los Angeles at this point, but I wanted to hear what Dr. J said locally before I made any commitments one way or the other.

(In the interest of full disclosure, this post was actually written on 1/30/09.)

Nice to meet you

I finally posted for the first time today on the ANA discussion forum. I wanted to introduce myself and ask for advice about talking to doctors.

(In the interest of full disclosure, this post was actually written on 1/30/09.)

Still amazed at the follow-through

Dr. F gave me another call today to let me know that he had consulted with Dr. S. He asked me which way I was leaning - translab, where I would definitely lose the hearing, or middle fossa, which would allow for a chance of saving the hearing. I said middle fossa, which seemed to surprise Dr. F, who then stressed the fact that I would most likely lose my hearing either way and that translab was their recommendation. He also reiterated that "radiation therapy is not for [me]."

He went on to more fully explain the BAHA (bone-anchored hearing aid) device, and how that it does a good job allowing people to "hear" on both sides. The BAHA consists of a titanium implant that is screwed into the bone behind the ear and a processor that snaps onto the part of the implant that sticks out of the skin. The processor picks up the sounds from that side of the head and transfers the vibrations to the skull where they are "heard" by the other ear. Dr. F said that 25% of the patients with single-sided deafness (SSD) at House get a BAHA and that 90% of those people are happy with the device.

Dr. F told me to expect a call from Dr. S and said that he would have his surgical coordinator give me a call as well to discuss scheduling surgery and insurance coverage. He also gave me his cell phone number and said to call him if I had any other questions.

(In the interest of full disclosure, this post was actually written on 1/29/09.)

Another interesting appointment

I saw Dr. G, the radiation oncologist, today. He explained the three options to me again (watch & wait, surgery, radiation) and briefly described the CyberKnife fractionated treatment. Basically, the goal of CK is to split up the total amount of radiation into several sessions so that the tumor gets the combined strength of radiation but the surrounding tissues get a much smaller accumulated dose. The rate of hearing preservation with CyberKnife is higher than with Gamma Knife for this reason.

GK is usually a single session of radiation directed at the tumor, and to ensure the patient doesn't move, a metal head frame is screwed into the patient's skull. CK uses a fitted mask to maintain an approximate continuity between sessions, but the machine also has an on-board CT scanner that scans the location of the patient's head during the procedure so the robotic arm can adjust if a slight recalculation needs to be made.

I didn't really feel that I learned any more about the CK option than I already knew from reading the discussion forum posts. The main thing I took away from this meeting was what Dr. G said toward the end of the appointment, which was that his recommendation for me, based on my age and the lack of long-term studies on the effects of radiation, would be to have surgery. He said that he wouldn't NOT do radiation treatment if that's what I wanted, but that it wouldn't be his preferred choice.

The thing that AN patients run into a lot of the time is a lack of unbiased sources for information. Surgeons generally want to cut, and radio-oncologists want to zap. I was surprised to hear that Dr. G, being a radiation oncologist, thought I should have microsurgery. That was when I decided for good that I needed to be focusing on surgical options.

(In the interest of full disclosure, this post was actually written on 1/29/09.)

Exceptional customer service

Dr. F, a neuro-otolaryngologist (ENT) from the House Ear Clinic, called me today. We had a pretty long conversation, around an hour or so. These are some notes from that discussion.

• Surgery is the best option for a 26-year-old; he would definitely not watch-and-wait or have radiation.
• My hearing nerve is crushed and unresponsive.
• In his opinion, the tumor is slightly too big to preserve hearing.
• The goals of surgery, in order of importance, are 1) save the life, 2) remove all of the tumor, 3) preserve the facial nerve, and 4) save the hearing.
• The retrosigmoid approach is very complicated and would not be a good option for my situation because it would be difficult to remove all of the tumor in the internal auditory canal (IAC).
• He would recommend either translab or the middle fossa approach but thinks translab would be best because the tumor is slightly too big for middle fossa, plus the hearing nerve probably isn't worth trying to save and there would be an increased risk to the facial nerve.

Dr. F said he would have Dr. S, a neurosurgeon, give me a call to discuss my case, and that he would give me another call in a couple days after he consulted with Dr. S as well.

(In the interest of full disclosure, this post was actually written on 1/29/09.)

It vanished

Somehow, my FedEx to the House Ear Clinic disappeared. I put it in the drop box and forgot about it. I realized that I hadn't heard from House, so I went to track the package, but there was no information available. I called FedEx, and they sent a driver to check the box for my envelope. It wasn't there. I stopped by the box later that day and checked for myself. No luck. So I prepared another CD and letter to send out the next day.

(In the interest of full disclosure, this post was actually written on 1/29/09.)

That wasn't what I expected to hear

I went to see Dr. K today. He was disappointed at the results of my ABR test and said that it was unresponsive, indicating that my hearing may not be able to be preserved. What I didn't understand was, if that was the case, why could I still hear fine out of that ear? He looked over my spinal MRI films and said that there were no incidences of additional tumors, so I probably don't have NF2. In order to completely rule it out though, I would need to have genetic testing done, but since I have no family history of it, he felt it would be unnecessary to do that.

After we went over those things, I asked about the CyberKnife, which seemed to catch him off-guard. He started looking very uncomfortable and suggested that I see the radiation oncologist to ask about that specifically. He gave me the name of the doctor, and then basically the appointment was done. I felt like I had done something wrong, but I was just trying to get all of the facts.

(In the interest of full disclosure, this post was actually written on 1/29/09.)

Seeking the best

I decided to go ahead and send a CD of my MRI to the House Ear Clinic in Los Angeles. They offer a free consultation, so I didn't think it would hurt to get another opinion about what's going on in my head.

(In the interest of full disclosure, this post was actually written on 1/29/09.)

I thought this condition was rare!

I went to the D.C.-area ANA support group meeting today. Our speaker was a doctor from a hospital in Virginia who runs a CyberKnife machine. He told us about the history of radiosurgery, from the early days of single-session Gamma Knife to the current way of using fractionated therapy with the CyberKnife. There were around 25-30 people in attendance at the meeting, many of whom had surgery throughout the years. Some people had radiation as well. A few people were watch & waiters, and a few others were like me who planned to do something in the near future but were still deciding the what and who.

One of the main things I got out the meeting was that radiation seemed like a viable alternative to surgery, and that if I had radiation first, I might be able to "buy some time" before I needed to have riskier surgery. The surgeons I had spoken with so far didn't offer radiation as a choice to me nor offer a thorough explanation of why. The other thing I learned was that the House Ear Clinic in LA is really on top of things in the AN world and that it would be worth contacting them for more info.

(In the interest of full disclosure, this post was actually written on 1/29/09.)

Getting the run-around

I had been trying to set up another appointment with Dr. K, but his receptionists kept telling me that he's on vacation. I left a message and then followed up later when they said he would be back in the office, but they told me that he's still not back. The problem was that he had no appointment openings until later in October, but I didn't want to wait that long to see him again. The staff had to check with him before they could set up a double-booking. Eventually I emailed Dr. J to see if he could help things along, which ended up working. I'll be seeing Dr. K again on Sept. 29, which is awhile from now, but I guess I have no choice. Meanwhile, I'll keep doing more research.

(In the interest of full disclosure, this post was actually written on 1/29/09.)

Thank you, Internet!

I found out about the Acoustic Neuroma Association and requested an information packet from them. Looks like there is a D.C. support group meeting later this month. I also started reading the ANA discussion forums and am finding it very helpful to hear from people who have been through this. I'm learning a lot but I'm too nervous to actually post yet.

http://www.anausa.org/

(In the interest of full disclosure, this post was actually written on 1/29/09.)

Hey...it's not brain surgery

People are always comparing the difficulty of things to brain surgery. You ask someone how to do something and they reply with "it's not brain surgery." Well, today was my first encounter with an actual brain surgeon, and he didn't seem to think that his job was as hard as everyone makes it out to be.

Dr. J was young, somewhat surprisingly young. He seemed very competent though as he explained the retrosigmoid procedure to us. The surgeons drill a hole in the skull behind the ear, retract the brain, and excise the tumor. This procedure leaves a chance for hearing preservation, unlike the other main AN-removal technique known as translabyrinthine. In the translab procedure, the surgeons drill through the inner ear canal, destroying the hearing mechanisms, to get to the location of the tumor.

As Dr. J was talking and demonstrating the location on a skull, I took notice of his hands. They were kind of dry but also very steady. That seemed like a good sign to me. He also seemed very confident, but I never got a specific number of how many of these he had performed. Dr. K had said that they do essentially one per week, but I wasn't sure if that was just the two of them or if that figure included other skull base tumor doctors at the hospital.

Phil and I left that appointment feeling pretty good about the doctors we had met at Georgetown.

(In the interest of full disclosure, this post was actually written on 1/28/09.)

Three hours in a machine!

I found out that a full spinal MRI takes about three hours, and they do it in parts over two days so you don't go crazy. It wasn't that bad, but the brain MRI is quicker and more enjoyable. Also, you can't use your insulin pump when you're in the MRI screening room (metal objects...huge magnets...not a good combination), so being disconnected from insulin for over an hour didn't do great things to my blood sugar.

(In the interest of full disclosure, this post was actually written on 1/28/09.)

ABR is easier than MRI

The ABR test is a cinch. All you have to do is sit very still in a recliner while the techs put some electrodes on your forehead. You're not allowed to fall asleep, but other than that, it requires no real effort.

The audiologist said that "the test results were consistent with my diagnosis." I wasn't really sure what to make of that.

(In the interest of full disclosure, this post was actually written on 1/28/09.)

The onslaught of info begins

Phil and I arrive at Georgetown Hospital to meet the ENT, Dr. K, there. We wait in the waiting room for a long time and are then finally called back. Dr. K explains the options (watch & wait, radiation, surgery) and recommends surgery due to my young age. Most acoustic neuroma patients are in their 40s or 50s. He says that there is a chance that I could have Neurofibromatosis-2 (NF2), a genetic disorder that causes these benign tumors on both sides of the head and along the spine, because I am on the young side to present with just a single acoustic neuroma. He recommends that I get an MRI of my full spine to check for any incidence of tumors. He also wants me to get an auditory brainstem response (ABR) test, as that will help them determine the level to which my auditory nerve has been affected by the tumor. Finally, Dr. K gives me the name of the neurosurgeon with whom he works on AN cases, and I'm to set up a meeting with him to discuss the actual surgical procedure in greater detail.

(In the interest of full disclosure, this post was actually written on 1/28/09.)

Reading between the lines

Phil (my husband) and I went to pick up the films and letter at Dr. W's office first. I went up to the receptionist's window and said my name and that I was there to pick up my MRI. The receptionist handed me an oversized envelope and said "good luck" in a hushed voice. I could feel her and the other woman behind the counter look at me the whole time as I made my way to the door. It was quite an eerie feeling. I asked Phil, "There must really be something wrong with me - did you see how they looked at me? Like I was going to die or something!" Phil, in his usual calm and collected manner, replied, "No, they're just not used to dealing with things besides earaches and allergy shots."

We got down to the building lobby, and I opened the letter from Dr. W to the Georgetown doctor and read it. I'm a "pleasant 26-year-old" presenting with unilateral tinnitus and hearing loss...MRI shows what could be a 1.5 cm acoustic neuroma...etc.

My hands are shaking a bit as we hail a cab to take us to Georgetown Hospital.

(In the interest of full disclosure, this post was actually written on 1/28/09.)

A surprise phone call at work

The day after the MRI, Dr. W called me at work. He launched into an explanation about cranial nerves and how a wart-like thing can grow from them. As he was explaining all of this, I thought to myself, "I need to listen to this carefully. If he's telling me all this stuff, it must be what I have." Dr. W said that during his residency in Canada, he saw a lot of people treated for this condition with radiotherapy, but that here in the U.S., most people have surgery to remove it. He also said that I would need to see a different ENT who specializes in this "thing," and asked me if I would rather go to Georgetown or Johns Hopkins. I told him Georgetown since I live in D.C. He said that he would call the other doctor's office to work on getting me an appointment.

Meanwhile, I was trying to figure out exactly what was wrong with me. He never called it an "acoustic neuroma," and based on his explanation, I thought it would be something easy to remove by going in through the outer ear. Only after I Googled "wart on nerves in ear" did I find out what I was in for. I went outside to call my parents, and my mom answered. She was as startled as I was but told me to not freak out too much until I met with the other doctor.

Dr. W called me back a couple of hours later to tell me that he got me an appointment with the doctor at Georgetown Hospital for two days later. That was slightly alarming because it was so immediate. Was this thing really a lot worse than I understood? I was supposed to stop by his office before I went to Georgetown to pick up the MRI films and a letter from him to my new doctor.

(In the interest of full disclosure, this post was actually written on 1/28/09.)

MRIs are a nice way to relax

I went in for my MRI (with contrast) today. Wasn't quite sure what to expect, but everything was fine. It was rather relaxing listening to the clicks, hums, and other rhythmic sounds the machine makes.

(In the interest of full disclosure, this post was actually written on 1/28/09.)

Don't you think an MRI is overkill?

I got a letter from the ENT today, asking me to give him a call. I do, and he tells me that he's going to mail me a prescription for an MRI. He doesn't say anything about what he thinks may be wrong, only that the unilateral hearing loss means that an MRI is the next step in figuring out the problem.

I called my parents and ranted about how an MRI seems ridiculous. I mean, I just have some ringing, and I can't even tell that I have hearing loss. I doubt an MRI is going to do anything. I decide to wait a couple of weeks before making the appointment.

(In the interest of full disclosure, this post was actually written on 1/28/09.)

Press the button when you hear the sound

I went for my first-ever hearing test today. I guess I've probably had one or two while I was growing up, but this one seems like the real deal. I go into a soundproof booth, and then the testing guy puts microphone things in my ears and hands me a button. I press the button when I hear the beeps, which range in tone and volume. Then he says a word and asks me to repeat it. The test doesn't take very long, and he shows me the results: I have hearing loss in my left ear, but my right ear is fine. On my way home, I got somewhat upset, thinking, "Of course I can't hear EVERYTHING, the ringing is in the way! Which came first, the hearing loss or the ringing? Are they connected? I don't understand what's going on."

(In the interest of full disclosure, this post was actually written on 1/28/09.)

Something just isn't right

I finally decided to go to the ENT. The ringing hasn't stopped, and so, for my peace of mind, I am going to get it checked out. Dr. W is young but seems to know what he's doing. He instructs me to go for a hearing test.

(In the interest of full disclosure, this post was actually written on 1/28/09.)

Do you know an ENT?

I went to my new endocrinologist today (diabetes doctor). At the end of the appointment, he asked if there was anything else I had questions about. I told him about the ringing in my ear, and he said it wouldn't hurt to get it checked out. He gave me the name of an ENT in the same building.

(In the interest of full disclosure, this post was actually written on 1/28/09.)

What is that sound???

I've been noticing that I have a ringing sound in my left ear lately. I am slightly concerned because I don't think I've been exposed to any loud noises that would cause this.

(In the interest of full disclosure, this post was actually written on 1/26/09.)