Friday, July 17, 2009

Crying with two eyes

Great news! I think I have my tears back in my left eye. Something funny happened at work today that made me laugh so hard I cried. I grabbed a tissue to wipe my eyes and realized an hour or so later that I had been dabbing at both eyes! I think it's back!! I'll have to confirm with another crying session, but for now, I am going to say that it has returned for good. Yay!!

Wednesday, July 15, 2009

Accepting loss

It's only recently started to sink in that this hearing loss will be with me forever. When I was first diagnosed, I didn't really cry or get upset, I just dealt with what needed to be done. It wasn't until five months into it or so that it really hit me. Likewise, since surgery, I've just been dealing with SSD, and it's been fine for the most part. But now, about five months later, I'm realizing that this issue isn't going to go away; in fact, it will be with me forever. Now, I know I could get a BAHA hearing device or something similar, but that's not going to change the fact that I will never hear "normally" again. I guess you could say that I'm going through a kind of grieving process right now. But optimism will prevail!